The reason Y. Sorry, if i hurt you.

This is my past, i just want you to know, if ever you would read this, on come across it by accident. Anyway, to me it doesn't really matter, cos it is in the past, not that i dun want to move on, or i can't move on, is just that, it happen in my past, before, and i believe we should learn from our past relationship, or else we will alwys be walking incircles.

Love is for fools,
For I have once love blindly and whole heartedly,
Gave her everything, all my time and whatever she desire,
but return was a guilt,
that hurt me so deeply,
For fate brought us together yet brought us further.
And now after this time,
She is with someone,
And those things she said in the past,
Doesn’t really matter
“I can’t forget my past, and I tried my best.”
But what is your best? If I wasn’t even in her heart,
and she could tear me inside, part by part.
Breaking my heart, and making me cry
“if you didn’t love me so, don’t bother to try”
cos this is not a game, where there is many life.
It is just one life, who had laid down for you,
Who did his very best,
Just to be hurt so deeply,
That he change his life.
Stronger thou, yet he knows
he shall not love her
anymore.

Thus i choose never to go in a relationship, especially one who is attach, i might have feelings, but i know it won't last, cos,
i have once been hurt,
by someone i love so deeply,
just by telling her my feelings,
and not spoiling another. but yet again, i was the cause of her actions,
And living with guilt, yet she didn't love me.
So what is the point, will i get hurt again, so it is impossible, if you are older , or dedicate songs to me, my heart is dead.
I don't know what you see in me, although you never say, but i know clearly, you did many things for me, even more than my ex or buddies, and yet i can't even give you the present, i knew you from my buddy, and he treated you as a sis, and i treat you like one to, cos you are not single. I hope you respect my decision, I just don't want to get hurt anymore and hurt you too. Sorry is all i can say, in anyway if i lead you this way, i do know your feelings, but i can't reciprocate, i know it is not right. and i'm sorry. I want you to take care, and hope you one day will talk to me again, and hopefully by then

we are still friends.